Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Missing Something Badly ................

When I see things around me, I feel like I am missing something’s which I always wanted, I feel like I have given up many things to see people around me happy. I feel like I am trying to adjust and survive. But this is not me; I want to live my life I don’t want to survive. I am not saying that I am not happy but somewhere deep down I know I am missing something badly. I never want my life to be this way.

At one hand I am very happy to have someone who is so loving, caring, understanding, supporting, always ready to do anything just to see a smile on my face.I feel I am lucky to have someone like him in my life who respects me for the person I am.Really feel it’s a blessing to have him in my life, he is one person who makes me believe in myself. I don’t know what I would have done without him.

And on the other hand I really don’t know why I am missing something badly.This is making me depress at times. I have to make myself believe that I am happy and things are fine, but deep down there is something which haunt me everyday.
Life seems to become still, just office and home sometime dinner and sometime shopping.

When I look back, I feel that, this in not what I planed or dreamt for…..This is not the way I have thought about my life and there are still so many things I want to do, many things I want to learn and experience.
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1 comment:

Aflame!! said...

Shd i agree to wha u said?
ALL ma life i knw i miss hell lotta things as i moved on.. from places from loved ones.. from ppl whom i bearly knew!!

As they say "beauty lies in the eye of a beholder" itz all upto u how u lookin at ya life, compromise becomes implicit!! It imbibes itself in everyday life.. day in and day out.. what it is today is better than yesterday - thatz an optimist sayin!! But a pessimist thiks otherwise.. so itz completely on ya..

Sayin all the above.. baby I knw wha u went thru penning down ur recurring thoughts in head!! coz darling we arent sailing any different :( Life'z like that!!